Cattle Graveyard
There
are bones scattered in the grasses,
gray
and faded, hidden between scrubs
and
pricker bushes.
The
summer air is thick in my throat
as I
dig for bone treasures, a jaw,
a
femur. I’ll find an intact spine,
vertebrae
still hanging together like a silver bracelet.
The
coyotes live in a cluster of trees across the field,
restless
as they wait for the next cattle death
from
old age, fever, infection in the lungs.
The
last one to die was Railey, and she’s
over by
the oasis, her hide stretched thin over bones
picked
clean by the buzzards circling
like
puppets on wires above my head.
Their
shadows on the ground before me are hallucinogens,
and I
stumble toward thick-boned skulls to mount on my bedroom wall.
Once, I
believed they came here to die,
knew to
lay down with their late kin;
I know
now the rancher and his boy drag the carcasses
far
from the barn and main house
to keep
the coyotes at bay.
My
father tells me the cattle mourn their dead,
the
deep lowing in their throats a cry for the ones
who
fell behind, who couldn’t make it to greener pastures.
We
gather their bones in silence
after
years of sun bleached them clean,
because
this stretch of pasture is as close
to
touching death as children can get,
collecting
ghosts of beasts long gone
still
chained to their bones.