Theater at the End of the World:
A Hallucination in at Least 11 Parts
by AM Ringwalt
the poem is like
Sweat in the night. Eucalyptus trees. Aloe cracked onto feet.
There is a bonfire. They are burning white flowers. Some people
have frogs crawling to their shoulders. Others drag their feet
through the dirt. Is this a ceremony--
i want ceramic
i want your heart
i want gusts of wind blowing
sand into spiraling tunnels
i want to spit on your darkness
i want to make you know
the topography of scabs
is the root of delight
when the caves begin to fall apart the voice of a toddler rings out
i’ve never really paid attention to your chin
but i’ve wanted to throw myself into the fire
with the white flowers
i’ve thought of bartending
before a religious career
if i were a nun i’d wear black velvet
and drink orangina and i’d say
this is algebra in a low voice
and i’d mean we are solving things
and when she, too, perishes, innocence will speak
if i say this now i’ll say it again
my hair is dirty and
i’ll dip my tongue into a tall
shot glass full of sugar
and
trees will snap
like necks
and
the way we interact
is a colonial woman
chanting into her navel
the word is lichen
(modeled after FLOWER by sonic youth
the song that makes wrists slit themselves)
an autobiography since no one will see it; a marriage proposal
when i die throw my ashes
into organ pipes i want
people to put red roses
through their pierced ears
like gauges i want a warm
and slender body to slide
like a worm under snow
and take root there let
that body live let it reap
abuse and rise now
even horses look into
mirrors and i’m telling
you there must be god
in fuscia drool i’m moving
like deep-sea kelp for you
enchanted by the way you
spiral down in death i imagine
banisters made of diamonds
banisters wrapped in crimson
velvet crushed apples in your
gut your thumbs up in defiance
put me in your world i destruct it
and some instructions for the next species
how to seduce:
decide when feverish
i.e.
so,
i made a mask out of goat cheese
i want you to lick it off
do it in the bathroom with the wrench
do it in the kitchen with your prom date
(in the limousine when you’re drunk)
the thoughtful teen queen on a toilet seat
i’m making a list of bitches in my head; i’ll be my own scribe
or full of sarcasm
a celebrity told me to sext lovingly
an elderly man
i had a fever dream about a golden enema
me in my worst state of being
when
tumbling braids met my back and bath
water
held me in my fatigue
or
they
are waiting for me in prague
they
want to break my cello on my back
and
sing fugues into my hips
when the ritz hotels, too, fall
look
at that gold
when the centered headings fall
they look like this
only indented
the hands are weak
and when the hymen bursts
and when the umbilical cords make hangings in the womb
and when the pulp of peaches becomes the tongue
and when a person kisses like this
and when a person knows this love
let salvation ring
let salvation ring
when even lennon doesn’t believe in tarot
or magic or even elvis
a boat captain bellows: hold your sanctity, friends, this is the end